everything to gain

Today I’m trying to remind myself that I matter. 

What I feel matters. What I think matters.  My needs matter.

And sharing, communicating, opening up doesn’t have to make me feel vulnerable and scared and hurt.  It doesn’t have to end in tears.

I am already enough.  I have nothing to lose and everything to gain.

Things could have been different.  How I felt could have mattered more growing up. I didn’t have to feel that I wasn’t good enough almost every.single.day.

But I did. For too long.  And damm it, damm it, deep deep down , its still there.